When I woke up this morning I felt like quitting pickup forever. I never did take it seriously because I've always had this awful feeling inside me every now and then. It just shows up the next morning after a night like yesterday. Whenever I meet someone who makes a living teaching pickup and who found out about the pickup community later than I did I start to question my commitment and goals. I start feeling doubts about myself and I think about quitting pickup.

Right now, I'm feeling better of course. I wrote down a list of pickup and sarging goals that I want to obtain in the near future. I created these goals with the intention of working on them right away. And these are:

1) To go out sarging every Thursday, Friday, and Saturday night despite being broke and unemployed (by the way thanks to the guys who are clicking on my amazon links and buying books. Hope those books enlighten you.)

2) To identify and work on sticking points when out in the field sarging!
Right now I would say the majority of my problems lie in approach anxiety. I am able to do everything else including plowing and staying in set. My two major sticking points according to the Mystery Method are in the Attraction and Seduction phases. Comfort is like my best friend.

3) To become a better wingman by not flaking every time it's cold or snowing outside.

4) To get more involved with the pickup community by reading and commenting on at least 5 field reports per day.

5) Post a detailed post about pickup here every single day. I'm talking about opening up MS Word and just typing away until I reach the 500 word count.

6) Identify things that are non pickup related that I would enjoy doing in the company of women.

These things are reading poetry, learning a foreign language, and taking a creative writing class. I am also thinking about taking up an interest in art and politics. Also, I want to go to the museums, watch more movies, and attend concerts. I also want to play in a band. It’s a good start, but I have way too many interests listed. I have a lot of ideas like these that I want to try but I prevent myself from doing it because I think I don’t have the money to support all of this. That stops today. I will go out a get a part time job if I have to.

7) Read up on the old seduction posts by the pickup gurus or instructors of today and make a sizable post contribution on the alt.seduction.fast forum.

8) Read magazines from GQ, Details, and other Men’s magazine to get a general idea about current fashion.

9) Identify the type of women that I like and what type of man that they like and how they dress.

10) Create an avatar for myself and make an effort to buy at least one good article of clothing every month.

So there you have it. I have written over 500 words. Now I have to go out sarging in this single digit degree weather and put approach anxiety in the back of my mind and just open. Wish me luck.